Soul Searching

My journey through the world, trying to help people using Chinese Medicine

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Entries from October 2008

the month

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

so i’ve done about 300 treatments this month. that’s more than a busy month in my office in ny! i’ve helped a bunch of people and i find myself more convinced than ever of the need for chinese medicine all over the world.

this month i’ve treated poor illiterate farmers, royal families, tsunami victims, american expats, the whole gamut. it’s been great. the conditions have varied from luxurious, to barely tolerable.

i feel like if the journey ended now it would ok. the trip is complete. i can only wonder what the future will bring.

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fyi

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

in the area that was the most devastated it was 15 minutes between the earthquake and tsunami. it was around 8am in the morning and most people were going about their daily routine. they experience minor earthquakes all of the time - with no tsunami afterwards.

apparently the next most fatal tsunami happened in southern italy in 1908. it killed 80,000 people.

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progress report

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

okay, we saved one life from the scorpion bite, diagnosed at least one person with leperosy, did about one hundred treatments, helped a bunch of headaches that were unresposive to western meds (they were very responsive to chinese medicine), told one woman she had breast cancer and needed immediate treatment, and gave lots of little kids and pregnant moms vitamins. not too shabby for a weeks work…

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smiling happy people

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

it is amazing the resiliency that some people have. after some of the heart wrenching stories i’ve heard, that most of these people can even smile is mind boggling.

they show up to the clinic wanting chinese medicine treatment for ailments that have not responded to western medicine. they show up with friends smiling, and laughing, and joking around. picking up their lives and starting over. it helps me to put things into perspective in terms of my life.

can you imagine losing ALL your relatives in a couple of hours? small children playing in the street? or ripped out of your arms by the unstoppable wave? one guy at the place i worked, swam desperately with his mother in his arms and got to the roof of a mosque (usually 25′ above ground) and as he was pushing her up she was taken out of his hands by the current. he swam after her as hard as he could, but couldn’t find her. he was saved by other hands that pulled him to the mosque when he could swim no more and had given up on his mother and himself.

Hendra and Nia
the guy in the photo is hendra, his story is above. the girl’s name is nia, she comes from a town further north that wasn’t hit so badly. she wanted to help, so she got a job at this clinic.

another little girl was running from the giant wave with her two small sisters, one in her arms (a baby), and the other gripping her hand tightly as the enormous wave struck them and tore them from each other. only she survived.

there are many more stories like this. some worse.

Robyn and Nia
that’s nia sitting with robyn. robyn has saved countless lives in this area.

one story of some of the surviving kids is that when asked for months after the tsunami what their dreams were for the future was a blank stare and silence. in their minds there was no future.

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what is life about?

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

i guess that kind of question is a natural byproduct of this kind of journey, where you see such incredible disparities between what it takes for us in the west to feel “happy” or “fulfilled,” versus people that are happy just appreciating the privilege of being alive. for some people in the west it’s the accumulation of material wealth, for some status, for others spiritual accomplishments, for me it’s been helping others. in the end they all seem pretty much the same, how are you going to feel the most fulfilled having spent your time here. crazy questions for crazy times. what’s the difference between me, who’s on the ground helping, someone who donates money to the red cross, and someone that doesn’t give anything? it all seems kind of the same. you do what makes you feel comfortable. how many lives can you save? you can’t save everybody. what to do with one’s life?…

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scorpion bites

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

we saw about fifty patients during the day in two 4-5 hour sessions. the day had ended around 10pm. we were all tired and talking about the crazy cases we saw. then, around 11:30 at nite (we woke up around 6am that morning), a guy walks in. sorry, more like is carried in by his friends. everybody screaming EMERGENCY! EMERGENCY! we all (all three of us - the person who set up, runs, and works the clinic, the site coordinator - non medical, and me) run out to see who’s walking in.

The Boys Room
where the boys sleep (the girls sleep downstairs)

there’s a guy writhing in pain on the front porch. his foot is completely swollen and his big toe looks like it’s about to explode (everyone in this area walks around barefoot). we get the story that a scorpion stung him. his buddies (good buddies i might add) carried him AN HOUR overland to the clinic. they put some local herb mixture on it, which from the looks of it was making everything worse. they had also cut the wound with a knife to try and squeeze the venom out. i had heard this was really bad to do because it just increases the circulation in the area and makes the venom do its dirty work more quickly. i didn’t have the heart to tell them, just in case the poor fellow croaked, they might feel like they caused it. what was done, was done.

i can’t say i’ve treated any scorpion bites before but my teacher had told me how to a long time ago (he’s still saving lives!). of course, as usual, at the time i was thinking, when in my life am i going to see a scorpion bite? on sumatra of course! anyway, i had packed this special chinese medicine just in case of a toxic bite (many of my colleagues call me mr doom and gloom). very lucky for this guy. when he got to the our clinic, his foot and toe were very swollen, red, and painful. there was a darker band of red around the ankle joint, with a red line exending a couple inches up the front of the leg towards the knee.

now, according to everything i know, if that line reached the knee, the guy is dead. the line was moving up, and you could see it. it was a slow but visible progression.

like i said, i’d never treated a scorpion bite before (a couple spider bites, an odd centipede bite, one or two wasp stings). much less a scorpion bite in the middle of the indonesian jungle, deep inside the UN’s red zone, in the heart of rebel territory, with no road to speak of.

everything my teacher had ever told me had worked exactly as he said it would, but this was rough. one wrong move and the guy was dead. to confirm this i had the clinic manager call a doctor that comes to the clinic twice a week to treat the locals. i had treated him earlier that day, and he seemed pretty competent. we asked him how serious it was. he said not serious, just painful. we all breathed a giant sigh of relief, relaxed a bit, and did our best to clean and care for the wound.

five minutes later we get a frantic call from our doctor friend saying he checked with a friend of his, an expert from the hospital, and we had to get the guy to the hospital ASAP! as i had been taught, if the red line gets to the knee it’s curtains for our patient. the good news is that there’s antivenom at the hospital. the bad news is, it takes over an hour of off road driving to get to the hospital, the regular driver is down for the count with an absessed tooth, it’s 11:30pm, pitch black, they drive on the opposite side of the road, and i’m the only one that can do it! i figured that’s what i came for anyway so let me have at it.

during the brief period before the general panic, i had a chance to clean and dress the wound. after cleaning it, i applied my chinese medicine treatment to it as well. i figured that it couldn’t hurt, and if the information my teacher gave me was as reliable as usual, it could save his life.

The Contraption
the vehicle

anyway, there i was, the exhausted ambulance driver (it’s a four wheel drive jeep like contraption). we recruited the local site coordinator to navigate (trying to drive through the jungle at night is hard, even when you know where you’re going). we piled the screaming, writhing passenger into the back seat with his steadfast buddy, and sped off.

the first thing that happened was i got stuck in the mud. not even out of the driveway! everyone except scorpion man got out and pushed. it was raining lightly. that was bad. not because we were stuck in the mud, but because it floods really easily, and when that happens you can’t cross this river that you need to drive through to get to town. what’s just as bad, is that if you can get to town maybe you can’t get back. we made it out of the driveway, and my poor navigator’s night was just beginning.

the headlights were barely a help. the rain was obscuring our vision. the humidity had the windshield fogged. and i was driving on the wrong side of the road. countless times the navigator would scream as i avoided a hole in front of us by swerving this way or that, and come perilously close to going over an edge into a ravine, or raging river. the poor guy aged ten years in a single night. i was all business. we drove over a couple of coconut tree bridges (don’t ask). and finally made it to town an hour later.

we get to the hospital and it’s all the worst things you can imagine. filthy, body fluids covering everything, people smoking (the doctors!), a row of patient beds, a motorcyle (in between the beds), all in the emergency room. we put our man, who says he’s feeling much better, on one of the wet tables (eeech!), and the doctor comes over to look at him, cigarette dangling from his lips. he takes the dressing of and BAM! all the pain, swelling, and redness are gone! it feels totally normal to the touch. on top of that, the cut they made that was about an inch long was perfectly sealed. no scab, just the tissues starting to mend. incredible!

the doc pulls over a big, open plastic garbage can full of medical waste that i won’t describe (believe me, be happy about the omission). then he pulls a cart over with a bunch of medical instruments on it. they are all in a kind of tray that’s wet with a mixture of blood and what looks like mucus. he pulled out a pair of tweezers, wiped them off, and drove them straight into the perfectly fine and healing wound. he dug around in there for a few minutes, then said it looked good. he squeezed a bunch more blood out (it was already bleeding freely), and then put some antibiotic cream and a bandage on it. he told the guys in a completely derogatory manner that they were obviously not medically trained or they would have known to make the cut on the bite parallel to the ground instead of vertical (as i said earlier this is completely contraindicated). he then went to get the “antivenom.” he went in the back and come out with an already filled syringe. i asked to see the vial. he said he lost it. i asked again, he said he threw it away. what can you do? at least the wound was better.

my trusty navigator, who HATES to drive, decided that both of our life expectancies would go up considerably if he drove back. that was fine with me. the rain had let up, and the emergency was over. we took our patient and his friend and put him back in the jeep and headed off.

when we got to the coconut tree bridge in the jungle, we joined a long line of waiting vehicles. the bridge was out. someone had tried driving a giant truck over it and blew it out. my driving companion called ahead to base camp and had them send a scooter to take us all back one by one. first the patient and his friend, then me. he stayed with the car. i offered to stay with him. he said no, i needed to go back and sleep so i could see patients in the morning. i got back at 2am.

he later told me that he was a little nervous being stuck in the middle of the jungle, deep in rebel territory with a white guy and no one else around for miles…

ps - the patient came in the next day fine. complete recovery. he brought five of his friends for chinese medicine treatment with him.

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people in clothes

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

imagine five people living in a 10′ x 10′ mud covered tent, pitched on wet ground that can’t drain after a heavy, tropical rain. then imagine living like that for a year. that’s part of every day for these people. what i have trouble comprehending is how these proud people get themselves as cleaned, and pressed as they do, every day, like they are ready for sunday church first thing in the morning! clothes spotless, ironed, sitting outside in front of their mud covered home.

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the red zone

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

i am deep in the heart of the civil war zone, surrounded by rebel camps and activity. i am far outside the “green zone,” the area designated by the UN to be a reasonable security risk.

Housing

this is the area where people need the most help. for many here, i am providing basic healthcare. western medicine for the most part isn’t so useful, because the supplies can’t make it here. there are some local doctors and that come through and see patients once or twice a week. their abilities to help are limited by the tools available. chinese medicine has proved far more useful for most of the parients here.

Construction
it’s one year later and this is what people are living in…

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the agencies

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

catholic and islamic relief services (two seperate groups) apparently have been great. they have been nonsectarian and have helped to rebuild mosques, houses, all kinds of facilities.

the UN has been criticized in the usual ways, too slow, too much red tape, too slow too act, they came in the beginning and set up lots of tents and barracks for people but without bathrooms or drinking water. they are not on the front lines. on the flip side, they have provided some structure and organization to the aid effort by coordinating the various ngo’s.
they also provide air transport for the ngo’s, and this has been great.

solidarité, a french organization, has done lots in terms of providing people with water by drilling wells.

unicef started an orphanage with no bathrooms or running water and then closed it down and threw the kids out after a few months. it denied closing it for months, saying it was still operational.

oxfam has done a lot but will only work for christians (in an islamic state!).

the red cross/res crescent has been really good and nonsectarian.

there’s a very low key organization out of singapore called mercy relief that has been really amazing in terms of what they do and provide.

then there are lots of small ngo’s out there going where the UN and Red Cross won’t…

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ground zero

December 2nd, 2005 · No Comments

i got here and thought as i travelled through the inland portion that the recovery was going well. things didn’t seem great but the town, melabeu, was vibrant and full of activity. there are still people living in thrown together shacks, most of them are trying to rebuild their houses from scratch.

Market

The Bridge 2

A Store

the story was quite different as the jeep head towards the shore and ground zero. first, the road was unbelievably bad. any dirt road in the US would have been better. this was more akin to off roading. partially because the ground is saturated from the tsunami, partially because of the local geography, the road gets flooded and reflooded. that breaks it down into its current lunar landscape form. on the way to the clinic we passed ghost towns, the empty shells of buildings, homes completely levelled.

Armageddon

it looks as if an atomic bomb went off here. in fact more people died in this area than did when the A bomb was dropped on nagasaki. the total was somewhere around 200,000 to 250,000 people. incredible. 200 miles of coastline, flattened, washed away. i couldn’t help but think about the recent bout of hurricanes in the south of the US and compare them to this as i was on my way up here. as we were going through town, i thought they shared some similarity (although it’s almost a year later here).

that was i got to the shore area. the fact is that there still IS a new orleans, here it’s a year later and there’s almost nothing. enormous piles of money have poured in - UN, OXFAM, RC, lots of projects but the devastation was so total in its scope that this is what they’re left with, people living in tents on wet earth. many have water now, it was the first priority. now roads, electricity, schools, hospitals are the next ones.

Remnants of a Town

as far as the geography goes the shore line is from 30 to 100 feet gone, washed away. to put that in perspective that would mean that half of miami beach would have evaporated. the water level 2 miles inland rose to 30 feet! utterly mind boggling. apparently the earthquake that sparked the tsunami moved the tectonic plates so much that sumatra is now 15″ lower, and the island off shore, nais, is 6′ lower (yes FEET). that would put most of nyc underwater too!

The Prison

up to a half mile inland you can see cars that were carried by the tsunami nestled in the tops of trees. all the rivers flow a red-brown color as the fertile topsoil drains away.

one incredible story is that before the tsunami there a 3200 ton barge (that’s REALLY big!) that was off shore supplying power to the coastline up here. then the tsuanmi came which lifted it and dropped it 2 miles inland, right on top of a house! and it still works!

to compare it to new orleans, it would be as if three atomic bombs had been dropped on the city. totally unfathomable.

anyway, words can’t describe it. it is remarkable the way aid has poured in. i have met people that have been here since the first week. from grassroots organizations to multimillion dollar agencies. all people willing to help. it is heart warming.

i’ll write more on the aid agencies later…

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